ha'ay nakuh.. weiRd..???

slashing thoughts came to me this day.. realizations??? Things will not fall the way we wanted it to be..only countable circumstances, it does..
am i so sensitive??
soOoOoO pessimist???
hhmmm.
isn't it right to stock sort of doubts?
for future consequences...perhaps...

i don't know what's happening to me.
too reaListic yet too unreaL..
so sensitive yet so numb...
what's in my nutshell that keeps haunting me???

SELF-DISCIPLINE, s d answer???
owZzZzZ????
Do i need to discipline myself on my cRavings for debatable topics on my mustaRd seed???
ha'ay..
i can't help it what should i do???